October 30

Frozen Daisies. 

outside, it's getting colder by the day / inside you could probably say the same / it's the kind of chill you can feel inside your bones / the kind of frost  that'll leave you shivering all alone / the kind of ice that shatters into pieces if you're lazy  / more irreparable than the falling petals of the frozen daisies.

it's building and building, but up to what? in the movies, these families are time bombs. 
please get better.

the gray colours outdoors hold back my soul

October 27

I am just an embellished reflection / slowly the lies are eroding within / still I’m scared that you’ll see into my heart / What does my love mean when my soul is a fraud? / And what worth has caring if my care is a fa├žade?

i've been thinking for twenty days. honestly, if this mask has any effect, wouldn't its purpose counter effect its goal? 

October 7

Our faces are warm as we gaze up and up into / the deep, infinite, unfathomable blue. / When I close my eyes I can float light as air / ascending forever under the sunlight's glare / more distant than the birds, higher than my fears, farther than the past... closer to the heart that I let go.

We laid there talking for an hour with our bodies in the grass and our hearts in the sky. Beautiful moments like these are perfect spent with friends like you. 

October 1

Seeing your smiling face for the last time has doubled me over/ set me to sea, tossing in the foam of memories I’ve acquired / I know that this is not the last time / but it’s the finality of knowing you’ll never be mine / I always thought this feeling would bring only pain / so will this wary relief in my heart ever wane? / you broke me to pieces too long ago / so now that I’ve recovered I’m ready to let go. / seeing your smiling face for the last time has doubled me over / set me to sea, tossing in the foam of memories we’ve acquired / til far so far away I’ll wash ashore / a better person than I was before. 

I saw you again, and I finally don't care.